recent notes on me and my work 


january 2018


My work, like me, expands and explores different topics and goes in different directions. I can’t have it all. But I want it all. I’m constantly filled with curiosity and like a child find amazement and stimulation in almost anything.

I am influenced by new age, fashion, interior design, architecture, some cult film directors like Fassbinder and Dario Argento and their set designs, etc, etc.

I sometimes make clothes, and I'm mostly making sculpture atm and designing workshops that explore topics I'm interested in like self knowledge and self perception, spiritual connection, sutil and physical bodies as well. I feel like I've been working from the most physical, the materialities and textures and shapes to the most ethereal and invisible energies that connect people and live things with all the rest.  


I explore fantasy, sensuality and rituals.

I am interested in fantasy because I find more pleasure on fiction and/or drama. I found fantasy and amazement also in meditation, in fasting and in psychotropic drugs, specially natural plants. 


Fantasy generally takes me to a nice place, I like that kind of fantasy, the gentle one, the soft, sweet, warm, calm, pleasant one. I like it like the never ending story.


Well… with the workshops something special started to happen and it’s that now I feel im helping people and sharing with them. I give a lot. I’m always giving so much, and now trying to learn how to regulate that energy, cause then I feel empty, tired and sometimes even sad when I finish the workshops.


Sensuality.


I prefer to seduce people with my work than doing it myself. Even though I'm slowly starting to learn how to flirt. I maybe make my pieces so desirable and nice and soft and that’s why I want to be seen. I want them to touch them as if they were an extension of me. I am that. But I can also be a cold bitch and I enjoy it very much. I always thought and felt sex had to be warm. But I’m finding pleasure on the cold as well.


I'm writing again and also started to consider it as ‘work’. I write on my laptop and on my notepad on my phone and I’m really enjoying the voice recording. It’s like more spontaneous than writing even, since I can speak quicker than I can write. I wanna make work with those recordings.


With two fingers, very slowly, comes from that. It is a clear and direct reference to smudging your fingers in plaster and making a sculpture. But of course it is absolutely sexual as well.

On those pieces I tried to use the materials in the raw, almost all of them, just added a bit of colour, couldn’t resist, but wanted to make something more pure, and focus on shapes and materials and the experience of making and thinking about touch, or not thinking and just touching works great most of the times. And I love plaster cause it has that amazing texture and casts everything almost perfectly, even though I get bored by perfection. I am a mess too. I am a gemini. 


I find it hard to know when Im just documenting the work or the documentation becomes the work itself. 


Still Life vs Nature Morte



Rituals are everywhere. Ritual in the process of making work. In the process of making, and thinking in four things at the same time. In the process of letting go. I make my sculptural pieces as totems, as amulets, worship objects. I would like to make these immersive installations where people could be surrounded by these objects and meditate, dance, connect with themselves and with others.


I’m currently reading about different healing practices. Alternative healing practices, specially related to dance. All very interesting. Anti gymnastics, five rhythms, Bioenergetics and this woman that Tash showed me, Anna Halprin, who was also a contemporary dance teacher and after having cancer herself started developing this method for people with cancer.


I have been also dancing quite a lot alone, headphones on in my studio. No caring about a specific movement or anything, just dancing. I would say I enjoyed it more than yoga and it helped me relax quite a lot, since it’s a free movement and sometimes yoga can be too disciplined. I’ve been also filming myself dancing, but as I have my headphones on its quite funny to see the movements with no audio.


It is a very liberating experience.


I really wanna include dancing in my next workshop. Dancing as a healing practice. Maybe I should invite everyone to come with their own playlist on their phones and just dance together with headphones! yeah, I think I may actually do that.




end of December 2017


My work, like me, expands and explores different topics and goes in different directions.

Some people tell me there are too many directions, and maybe it’s true, I can’t have it all.

But I want it all. I’m constantly filled with curiosity and almost like a child, find amazement and stimulation in almost anything.


I’m not sure the exact direction I’m going, I’m just trying to be honest with myself and trust my instinct. I am influenced by fashion, interior design, architecture, some cult film directors like Fassbinder and Dario Argento and their set designs, etc, etc.


I sometimes make clothes, sometimes not, but in a way it all relates. They’re all plants from the same species and they parasite each other.


I explore fantasy, sensuality and rituals.


I am interested in fantasy because I find more pleasure on it that on real life, and through literature, poetry, films, etc one can make possible the logically impossible. I found fantasy and amazement also in meditation, in fasting and in psychotropic drugs, specially natural plants. I need to do that again, soon.


Fantasy always takes me to a nice place, I like that kind of fantasy, the gentle one, the soft, sweet, warm, calm, pleasant one.


The real world is already fucked up and I know I’m selfish and sometimes feel bad because I’m not ‘fighting’ or my art is not political art and it’s just modern, romantic bullshit.


But thats me.


Well… with the workshops something special started to happen and it’s that now I feel im helping people and sharing with them. I give a lot. I’m always giving so much, and now trying to learn how to regulate that energy, cause then I feel empty, tired and sometimes even sad when I finish the workshops.


Sensuality.


Well, I prefer to seduce people with my work than doing it myself. I maybe make my pieces so desirable and nice and soft and that’s why I want to be seen. I want them to touch them as if they were an extension of me. I need attention, obviously. Like all of us I guess?

Lots of people saying oh! that’s so nice, oh renata your photos are so pretty..


And I am that. But I can also be a cold bitch and I enjoy it very much. I have recently started to enjoy the cold. I always thought and felt sex had to be warm. But I’m finding pleasure on the cold as well.



I might be an awful writer, but I also like writing very much. I came back to it, and also started to consider it as ‘work’. I write on my laptop and on my notepad on my phone and I’m really enjoying the voice recording. It’s like more spontaneous than writing even, since I can speak quicker than I can write. I wanna make work with those recordings.


With two fingers, very slowly, comes from that. It is a clear and direct reference to smudging your fingers in plaster and making a sculpture. But of course it is absolutely sexual as well.

On those pieces I tried to use the materials in the raw, almost all of them, just added a bit of colour, couldn’t resist, but wanted to make something more pure, and focus on shapes and materials and the experience of making and thinking about touch. And I love plaster cause it has that amazing texture and casts everything almost perfectly, even though I get bored by perfection. I am a bit of a mess too. I also like it because it doesn’t last long. You have to be quick, and it allows you to be spontaneous, improvise.


They’re also very fragile. They don’t last, you need to be careful with them.


I’m gonna make those shapes in resin soon. probably January. Make them strong and durable but keep the organic quality of them... and the transparency oh!


Those pieces were made just for the mere pleasure of making, But I’d love them to be on an exhibition, of course. I sometimes use the same pieces for different photos. I tend to group the same sculptures (or just repeat some of them, my favourites)


I find it hard to know when Im just documenting the work or the documentation becomes the work itself. I play a lot with scale, and textures, and since I haven’t had many chances of a big studio, I took a lot of pictures of sculptures not bigger than 50 cm average, but with photography you can make them huge. Fantasy again.


I started to build more landscapy installations - or site responsive- words so the limit is again, very blured. Where does the work finishes and where does it end? When Does a sculpture is just that or is it part of a nature morte photography? (I like the french term, and also the contradiction between french and english, the opposition Still Life vs Nature Morte)


What happens if I dont ‘respect’ an installation and ‘repeat’ the piece using it somewhere else?

Rituals.


They are everywhere. Ritual in the process of making work. In the process of making, and thinking in four things at the same time. In the process of letting go.


I make my sculptural pieces as totems, as amulets, worship objects.


I would like to make these immersive installations where people could be surrounded by these objects and meditate, dance, connect with themselves and with others.



I’m currently reading about different healing practices. Alternative healing practices, specially related to dance. All very interesting. Anti gymnastics, five rhythms, Bioenergetics and this woman that Tash showed me, Anna Halprin, who was also a contemporary dance teacher and after having cancer herself started developing this method for people with cancer.


I have been also dancing quite a lot alone, headphones on in my studio. No caring about a specific movement or anything, just dancing. I would say I enjoyed it more than yoga and it helped me relax quite a lot, since it’s a free movement and sometimes yoga can be too disciplined.


I’ve been also filming myself dancing, but as I have my headphones on its quite funny to see the movements with no audio.


It is a very liberating experience.


I really wanna include dancing on my next workshop. Dancing as a healing practice. Maybe I should invite everyone to come with their own playlist on their phones and just dance together with headphones! yeah, I think I may actually do that!




















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